Ep.1: One Little Lump

On 14th December 2019 I found a lump in my left breast.  I'd been out cycling and was showering afterwards and something just felt wrong, weird, different.  I didn't for one second imagine I'd have cancer.  Me?  Cancer? That's mental right?  But I got it checked out and it on 22nd January 2020 it was confirmed.  I had invasive lobular breast cancer.   I was so profoundly shocked by the shit storm that hit our lives that I found it difficult to articulate.  Speech is my natural format but I was lost for words.  So I sat down and I started writing.  This is the result.  

I never wrote it with the intention of putting it out in the open, the point of the exercise was and continues to be just to get all the stuff out of my head.  I've been astonished by the changes finding that one little lump has had on my life.  Astonished and at times probably grateful because some of the changes in my head and my heart are good ones.  

Spoiler alert - I should just say that at the point of writing this I'm fine.  I'm cancer free.  But as you'll discover if you carry on reading, cancer doesn't end when its cut out of your body.   So here it is, the story of what happened to me after I found One Little Lump...